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Name: IvyNick: Ironyv
Age: 21
Gender: Female
Birthday: 30 November
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
Country: Singapore
Interests: Makeup, Reading books, Reading manga, watching anime, listening to music, slacking
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Thursday, September 11, 2003
Quitting. why do i say that? Well, thats because i am intending to quit my job, get a new life by first, seriously studying for my SAT test, exercising till i lose my tummy, get a driving license, and get a part time job that allows me more time to do my stuff. SIGH....I NEED TIME!!!!
The BIG major problem I am having is that my auntie seems to put extremely HIGH hopes on me, and when i told her i am intending to quit, she was like persuading me to continue on. The very next day, she conveniently told me that she is raising my part time pay, and seems to have forgotten about what i have said. Then she seems friendlier towards me, and tells me she is going to hand some purchasing stuff for me to do. I just couldn't feel more uncomfortable. i
The truth is, the reason why i am so confused is because I do not know my main aim or goal in life. Like if I were to know, i will be moving towards that goal. The fact is i do not have one. I think making money is not a main goal, but something more specific like HOW i am going to make money... Seriously, I do enjoy the cafe job sometimes, but other times, I feel stressed out, over worked, tired. And sometimes I can't find the smiling face I once wore when I just started working. Everything to me now has lose its appeal to me. I am no longer curious on how lattes or capuccino is made. I knew the techniques. I am not interested in the cafe anymore. It is tiring.
And what makes the whole job worse? An aunt who is like the mummy of the job. Why do i say that? She is my third sister of my mother, whom I do not get along as our characters are alike. Like my mum, she nags, bosses, argues and thinks she is right, give sacastic remarks, gives unclear instructions and then scold you for doing it all wrong and many stuff. IT is torturing to have to face her everyday. Though she is nice sometimes, i just can't work with her for long. Since she is the senior of the cafe, she behaves as if she is the head, even though she isn't. This is one reason why I must quit asap.
Sigh....wish someone can give me some advice...I am so tired of trying to figure what i want in my life, what is my main goal. I wish i can find some counselling or consulting from an unknown person who do not know about my life and just be a passive listener and consultant. Wonder i can find one.
Sigh....going to sleep, gd nite.
The BIG major problem I am having is that my auntie seems to put extremely HIGH hopes on me, and when i told her i am intending to quit, she was like persuading me to continue on. The very next day, she conveniently told me that she is raising my part time pay, and seems to have forgotten about what i have said. Then she seems friendlier towards me, and tells me she is going to hand some purchasing stuff for me to do. I just couldn't feel more uncomfortable. i
The truth is, the reason why i am so confused is because I do not know my main aim or goal in life. Like if I were to know, i will be moving towards that goal. The fact is i do not have one. I think making money is not a main goal, but something more specific like HOW i am going to make money... Seriously, I do enjoy the cafe job sometimes, but other times, I feel stressed out, over worked, tired. And sometimes I can't find the smiling face I once wore when I just started working. Everything to me now has lose its appeal to me. I am no longer curious on how lattes or capuccino is made. I knew the techniques. I am not interested in the cafe anymore. It is tiring.
And what makes the whole job worse? An aunt who is like the mummy of the job. Why do i say that? She is my third sister of my mother, whom I do not get along as our characters are alike. Like my mum, she nags, bosses, argues and thinks she is right, give sacastic remarks, gives unclear instructions and then scold you for doing it all wrong and many stuff. IT is torturing to have to face her everyday. Though she is nice sometimes, i just can't work with her for long. Since she is the senior of the cafe, she behaves as if she is the head, even though she isn't. This is one reason why I must quit asap.
Sigh....wish someone can give me some advice...I am so tired of trying to figure what i want in my life, what is my main goal. I wish i can find some counselling or consulting from an unknown person who do not know about my life and just be a passive listener and consultant. Wonder i can find one.
Sigh....going to sleep, gd nite.
ironyv at Thursday, September 11, 2003
