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Name: IvyNick: Ironyv
Age: 21
Gender: Female
Birthday: 30 November
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
Country: Singapore
Interests: Makeup, Reading books, Reading manga, watching anime, listening to music, slacking
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Previous Posts
- The end of a chapter
- All about Massage:GSS
- My stupid internet connection:Extreme tiredness
- Projects, Projects and more Projects!!!
- Self Criticism:Self esteem
- 2Cs: Casinos and Chinese
- About myself part 1
- Depressed: Looking back
- Media Planning:Loneliness
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Wish List
Digital CameraTo enroll into a makeup class
To go Japan to see my host family
To meet all the friends that I have been longing to meet (look below)
Meeting List
My polytechnic school mates: Jennifer, Changli, Jolene, Kiat, Grace, Sandy..etcMy ex company colleagues: Kelly, Liting, YingChao
My cousins
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Friday, July 25, 2003
Recently, I wasn't able to do much things. I was so busy with my work, which already covers more than half of my awake days. I did not realise until today when I was thinking of where to slot in my driving schedule. I was planning to put in some schedule for my driving lessons, but I find out if i were to work full day, from 7 to 7, then i'll be a wreck when i reach the driving centre!
Of course, i would probably seek for half day work, but that would not give me the salary i want! Darn...Furthermore, i want to slot in my fitness schedule as well, as working in a cafe, all those bloody food temptations is killing me!!! I felt as if i have gain 1 kg!!!!
Now, i do not have the time to even log in to internet and do my diary!!! AHHHH....nightmarish....so tired somemore. And the worse thing about this job? Is having to bear with it and i can't mention any problems to my parents, because the people i am working with is my relatives! If i were to tell my parents, they will mention it to them and then they will think i am some person who tell on them! ah....And my mum keep asking me the same questions about my job everyday, which to me, it is very tiring and i can't tell her about my work problems, it gets very frustrating as well. Well, maybe today I wasn't in a good mood.
You know, I have been thinking about what to do with my life. Yup, after so long, my decision as to how to continue with my life has still been undecided. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO!! Should i go university? Should i start working? Two important paths are laid out for me, and I do not know what the heck should i do. Darn....
Well, one good thing that happen to me today is getting the photos I have sent for washing yesterday. When the pictures came out and I collected them, I was very happy and looked at them for quite some time. Hehe...shall inform my friend about my pictures so that i could help them wash some.
Okay, good night!=P
Of course, i would probably seek for half day work, but that would not give me the salary i want! Darn...Furthermore, i want to slot in my fitness schedule as well, as working in a cafe, all those bloody food temptations is killing me!!! I felt as if i have gain 1 kg!!!!
Now, i do not have the time to even log in to internet and do my diary!!! AHHHH....nightmarish....so tired somemore. And the worse thing about this job? Is having to bear with it and i can't mention any problems to my parents, because the people i am working with is my relatives! If i were to tell my parents, they will mention it to them and then they will think i am some person who tell on them! ah....And my mum keep asking me the same questions about my job everyday, which to me, it is very tiring and i can't tell her about my work problems, it gets very frustrating as well. Well, maybe today I wasn't in a good mood.
You know, I have been thinking about what to do with my life. Yup, after so long, my decision as to how to continue with my life has still been undecided. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO!! Should i go university? Should i start working? Two important paths are laid out for me, and I do not know what the heck should i do. Darn....
Well, one good thing that happen to me today is getting the photos I have sent for washing yesterday. When the pictures came out and I collected them, I was very happy and looked at them for quite some time. Hehe...shall inform my friend about my pictures so that i could help them wash some.
Okay, good night!=P
ironyv at Friday, July 25, 2003
Sunday, July 20, 2003
HAHA!!!! Guess what? I have finally got a job! My aunt's cafe to be exact. It is a thrilling experience. I can make good three layer latte that looks so presentable! Alot of skill and effort have to be in it and i did it! Anyway, I would be moving to another cafe location which is about to open. I might be the in charge over there too! Hopefully I would learn all the things quickly before that.
But i do not like coffee. It has caffeine which i do not like. TOday i drank a cup of strong coffee brew and as I rarely drink coffee, i become 'drunk' or cranky after that cup. I went to gym after that and when i return home, i was dead beat. It makes me so drowsy and during my gym exercise, i was so tired. But to be in this line i would need to drink coffee. Darn...
Another week has passed and i must admit, i did have a quick week. A quick but productive week. I was not at home to slag around, but putting my effort in the cafe job. I seriously hope to quickly learn management stuff and take charge of the new branch!
Feeling so tired now. Wondering what is my friends doing now. Wonder my classmates have move on in their life, and forget about me. Maybe they will, i was not close to them at all. Well, at least i have a few close friends. I am glad to have just a few friends. Working in my aunt's cafe make me think about my schooling days, which sometimes feel so enjoyable. =)
Ok, as you can see, i am writing cranky stuff. I am still having the effects of the stupid coffee that i should not have drink it!!!!! hehehe.....
Okay, good nite pple!
But i do not like coffee. It has caffeine which i do not like. TOday i drank a cup of strong coffee brew and as I rarely drink coffee, i become 'drunk' or cranky after that cup. I went to gym after that and when i return home, i was dead beat. It makes me so drowsy and during my gym exercise, i was so tired. But to be in this line i would need to drink coffee. Darn...
Another week has passed and i must admit, i did have a quick week. A quick but productive week. I was not at home to slag around, but putting my effort in the cafe job. I seriously hope to quickly learn management stuff and take charge of the new branch!
Feeling so tired now. Wondering what is my friends doing now. Wonder my classmates have move on in their life, and forget about me. Maybe they will, i was not close to them at all. Well, at least i have a few close friends. I am glad to have just a few friends. Working in my aunt's cafe make me think about my schooling days, which sometimes feel so enjoyable. =)
Ok, as you can see, i am writing cranky stuff. I am still having the effects of the stupid coffee that i should not have drink it!!!!! hehehe.....
Okay, good nite pple!
ironyv at Sunday, July 20, 2003
Monday, July 14, 2003
I have just read the 700 more pages in just 3 days!!! Yesterday, I have read it till 4 am in the morning. I could not leave it behind till i read it all up!
But then, now that I have read finish the book, I would have to wait another 3-4 years for the 6th book and I might read that book in 3 to 4 days as well. Though it seems not worthwhile, it is worth that time
The reason why is because I would love to escape into the magical world, where impossible is possible, where there is no reality of this life. To my point of view, people love to run away from the realities in life. And in the book of Harry Potter, Fudge(If you know him) knew Dumbledore might be telling the truth, that Lord Voldemort is alive, but he choose to continue believing that Dumbledore is lying and pretend all is well. But in the book, Fudge finally have to crawl out of his snail's shell and face the ugly fact. This means in the end, people will have to face the reality they refuse to look at in the past.
I have just did a tarot reading for my younger sister. Yes, i did have a set of tarot. But it has been a long time since i used them. But from what my sister had said, i did read it quite accurately so I am actually happy to hear that. To me, there are several paths in life. An example would be when i finished my education. There will be paths in my life to choose. Path A is to university, B to a office job and C to my aunts cafe job. If i choose a path, i will walk that path until I face yet another crossroad. Thus, it is very important to choose what path we are going. IF taken wrongly, we will lose our way and regret taking the path.
BUT, unlike a normal path where you can go back and start again, Life's path is irreversible. I feel that some people do not actually care to choose paths correctly and in the end, they made mistakes.=) But then, Life's a bitch right?
Okay, nitey!
But then, now that I have read finish the book, I would have to wait another 3-4 years for the 6th book and I might read that book in 3 to 4 days as well. Though it seems not worthwhile, it is worth that time
The reason why is because I would love to escape into the magical world, where impossible is possible, where there is no reality of this life. To my point of view, people love to run away from the realities in life. And in the book of Harry Potter, Fudge(If you know him) knew Dumbledore might be telling the truth, that Lord Voldemort is alive, but he choose to continue believing that Dumbledore is lying and pretend all is well. But in the book, Fudge finally have to crawl out of his snail's shell and face the ugly fact. This means in the end, people will have to face the reality they refuse to look at in the past.
I have just did a tarot reading for my younger sister. Yes, i did have a set of tarot. But it has been a long time since i used them. But from what my sister had said, i did read it quite accurately so I am actually happy to hear that. To me, there are several paths in life. An example would be when i finished my education. There will be paths in my life to choose. Path A is to university, B to a office job and C to my aunts cafe job. If i choose a path, i will walk that path until I face yet another crossroad. Thus, it is very important to choose what path we are going. IF taken wrongly, we will lose our way and regret taking the path.
BUT, unlike a normal path where you can go back and start again, Life's path is irreversible. I feel that some people do not actually care to choose paths correctly and in the end, they made mistakes.=) But then, Life's a bitch right?
Okay, nitey!
ironyv at Monday, July 14, 2003
Thursday, July 10, 2003
Do you know what i have done recently after i quit my job? Nothing. Yup, nothing!!
Well, except that my mum ask me to do this and that, i do not really move from the tv! Like i am a couch potato you know!!! Yikes!
Okay, that is why i am in the net now, typing my post of the day. Jennifere just icq me and said that she saw an email about a lady giving birth! No, not the side view, but the full view of it!! GROSSSS!!!
Why do people do such silly things like showing the stupid process out! Giving birth is suppose to be very sacred but now, some stupid guy just made it into a freak show!! Haha...very funny eh....Other people also did stupid things by emailing pictures of gross and horrific pictures around the globe!!! DISGUSTING!!!
Anyway, today is just a boring day. Watching TV from 9 till 5? hahaha...like a job like that yah...hehe But really, Having a cable tv services is good. Why? There are soooo many things to see. Discovery, AXN, VV Drama, MTV SEA...you name it! I just change channels again and again and i don't feel bored at all!
Okay, maybe i am crazy. Anyway, tomorrow i am going to driving centre to take my theory test. I am very nervous. Wish me luck! Oh oh! Next week i am having a new job, it is a job working at my auntie's cafe. Hmm, hope i get a good pay for it though. Hope she sees this. Nah, she won't be able to see it. Hehe...I talk alot today yah!
Okay, got to stop talking!!=P
Well, except that my mum ask me to do this and that, i do not really move from the tv! Like i am a couch potato you know!!! Yikes!
Okay, that is why i am in the net now, typing my post of the day. Jennifere just icq me and said that she saw an email about a lady giving birth! No, not the side view, but the full view of it!! GROSSSS!!!
Why do people do such silly things like showing the stupid process out! Giving birth is suppose to be very sacred but now, some stupid guy just made it into a freak show!! Haha...very funny eh....Other people also did stupid things by emailing pictures of gross and horrific pictures around the globe!!! DISGUSTING!!!
Anyway, today is just a boring day. Watching TV from 9 till 5? hahaha...like a job like that yah...hehe But really, Having a cable tv services is good. Why? There are soooo many things to see. Discovery, AXN, VV Drama, MTV SEA...you name it! I just change channels again and again and i don't feel bored at all!
Okay, maybe i am crazy. Anyway, tomorrow i am going to driving centre to take my theory test. I am very nervous. Wish me luck! Oh oh! Next week i am having a new job, it is a job working at my auntie's cafe. Hmm, hope i get a good pay for it though. Hope she sees this. Nah, she won't be able to see it. Hehe...I talk alot today yah!
Okay, got to stop talking!!=P
ironyv at Thursday, July 10, 2003
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
Ah!!!! I have finally quit my god damned job! Yes!! Haha!! Hmm.... but now what? What am i going to do now that i have no job??
No worries....going to help my auntie at her cafe. She needs help. But then again, should i look for a permanent job that can easily gives me at least 1k? I really don't know, but one thing for sure, this decision have to be made by me.
I am a simple minded girl, though observant, i have no mind on my own sometimes. I do things that people asked me to do, I follow what people says easily. I am easily influenced. Hmm, Maybe like the horse Boxer in Animal Farm. Hardworking but stupid. Stupid as in people are just using you but you still go ahead and be used.
What is life? My life? I feel my life is just for people to get by. I don't find any purpose in my life, yet. At 20 yrs of age, i think i am still a teen, trying to seek some identity for myself. Guess i did not really think much during my past 10 years of my life.
I wanted to play guitar, drums. I love to swim, dance. I love to chat with my friends. But what do i want to do in my life to achieve my goals? In the first place, my goals are simple, start a business, get a car, get married. Simple? Yah Right! All this things seems easy to get but it is quite far to reach. Maybe by the time i have gotten my car i would be 30 yrs of age. Who knows...=)
Wow, serious stuff i said today. Ah, Need to change the layout of this blog site...
No worries....going to help my auntie at her cafe. She needs help. But then again, should i look for a permanent job that can easily gives me at least 1k? I really don't know, but one thing for sure, this decision have to be made by me.
I am a simple minded girl, though observant, i have no mind on my own sometimes. I do things that people asked me to do, I follow what people says easily. I am easily influenced. Hmm, Maybe like the horse Boxer in Animal Farm. Hardworking but stupid. Stupid as in people are just using you but you still go ahead and be used.
What is life? My life? I feel my life is just for people to get by. I don't find any purpose in my life, yet. At 20 yrs of age, i think i am still a teen, trying to seek some identity for myself. Guess i did not really think much during my past 10 years of my life.
I wanted to play guitar, drums. I love to swim, dance. I love to chat with my friends. But what do i want to do in my life to achieve my goals? In the first place, my goals are simple, start a business, get a car, get married. Simple? Yah Right! All this things seems easy to get but it is quite far to reach. Maybe by the time i have gotten my car i would be 30 yrs of age. Who knows...=)
Wow, serious stuff i said today. Ah, Need to change the layout of this blog site...
ironyv at Tuesday, July 08, 2003
Saturday, July 05, 2003
Great.....she had rashes. Lots of big blogs of rashes all around her legs. And a few days ago, it was worse. The rashes were all over her body! EW......gross out just by looking at her legs.
Anyway, Today is another boring day. I would need to stay up all night because i am going to fetch my boy friend from the airport at 6.30am!!! Which means i have to wake at 4.30 to prepare myself, meet his sister at 5.30. I don't know what am i going to do to keep myself awake. Maybe surfing internet or bullying or forcing my sister to accompany me!! HAHAHAHAA.....err.....nevermind.
Saw the discovery channel had this show on the animals of the future. Wonder how animals of the future looks like. This show will be entirely on computer graphics and might not be true. But then again, IT can be true but we won't be able to see it. IF the earth is still alive by then. Talking about environmental stuff, I believe if people just go on doing what they do the this earth, in the future, those animes about people living in space will be true. That is because of the over pollution and crowding in this planet. So who knows, in the future, there won't be any animals, just genetically created animals instead. Sigh....science....
Okay, got to stop talking...
Anyway, Today is another boring day. I would need to stay up all night because i am going to fetch my boy friend from the airport at 6.30am!!! Which means i have to wake at 4.30 to prepare myself, meet his sister at 5.30. I don't know what am i going to do to keep myself awake. Maybe surfing internet or bullying or forcing my sister to accompany me!! HAHAHAHAA.....err.....nevermind.
Saw the discovery channel had this show on the animals of the future. Wonder how animals of the future looks like. This show will be entirely on computer graphics and might not be true. But then again, IT can be true but we won't be able to see it. IF the earth is still alive by then. Talking about environmental stuff, I believe if people just go on doing what they do the this earth, in the future, those animes about people living in space will be true. That is because of the over pollution and crowding in this planet. So who knows, in the future, there won't be any animals, just genetically created animals instead. Sigh....science....
Okay, got to stop talking...
ironyv at Saturday, July 05, 2003
Wednesday, July 02, 2003
IT is now 11.13pm here in Singapore. I am wondering whether people are now waking up and starting a new day in their country. With the internet, everyone from different country can actually 'meet up' and talk. I remember when I was young, I used Microsoft Chat and met a Croatia guy.
However this person was my friend for a day. But throughout my life, I wanted to have friends from all over the world, but currently i did not accomplish that. Well, maybe in the future, I will be able to do that.
Just went Kickboxing today. Feeling damn tired now. Tomorrow I need to work! *groanz* The radio is playing Jewel's Hands. I love that song though. My sister once commented i am a sad person, I listened to sad sad music. Maybe she is right. When songs are sad, more emotions are there, and i like these kind of music.
Okay, i think i am crapping. Okay fine, i think i should go and sleep. Good nitz
However this person was my friend for a day. But throughout my life, I wanted to have friends from all over the world, but currently i did not accomplish that. Well, maybe in the future, I will be able to do that.
Just went Kickboxing today. Feeling damn tired now. Tomorrow I need to work! *groanz* The radio is playing Jewel's Hands. I love that song though. My sister once commented i am a sad person, I listened to sad sad music. Maybe she is right. When songs are sad, more emotions are there, and i like these kind of music.
Okay, i think i am crapping. Okay fine, i think i should go and sleep. Good nitz
ironyv at Wednesday, July 02, 2003
No work for me today, cos i am having my kickboxing lessons at night. I wonder why people, when they heard i learnt kick boxing or a little martial arts think is so odd. Is there any problem with me learning some brutal art? Can't a girl learn these things for self-defense purposes?
Now some of my colleaques think that i am a rather violent girl. But, who cares about them anyway.
Now i am just changing some stuff in my website and i realise that some things i have added in is not publish.....!$%^^$# oh well, i will try again later. In the mean time, i have add in a tag board. Anyone who got comments or advice can just tag a note there!!=)
sleepy now....*yawnz*
Now some of my colleaques think that i am a rather violent girl. But, who cares about them anyway.
Now i am just changing some stuff in my website and i realise that some things i have added in is not publish.....!$%^^$# oh well, i will try again later. In the mean time, i have add in a tag board. Anyone who got comments or advice can just tag a note there!!=)
sleepy now....*yawnz*
ironyv at Wednesday, July 02, 2003
*yawns* Ending of another day...HAving a job is like passing each day routinely. I have absolutely no idea how time flies during these days!! For your info, i am having a sales job so it is very tiring everyday!
You have no idea how stuck up people are! Everyday looking at their faces is enough to make me wonder why the hell am i stuck in this job. But then again, with this stupid job of mine, at least i gain a whole lot of experience from the job.
But right now, for 1 moment, i feel so tired and bored by the job. MAybe tomorrow will be fine.
You have no idea how stuck up people are! Everyday looking at their faces is enough to make me wonder why the hell am i stuck in this job. But then again, with this stupid job of mine, at least i gain a whole lot of experience from the job.
But right now, for 1 moment, i feel so tired and bored by the job. MAybe tomorrow will be fine.
ironyv at Wednesday, July 02, 2003
Tuesday, July 01, 2003
Ah! My blog has been set up! Though it is very plain and ugly and all, i am still designing my site and once it is done...i will change it...yes....
First post i am making huh? Well, i don't know where to start, maybe i can start with y i start a blog then.
My life is a mess now, thoughts are running here and there in my brain. Thus, i find it pretty tiring to keep them in my brain so i intend to put some of my memories, thoughts and my life in this site! It is that easy!I am a pretty boring person though, hope i don't bore people...
First post i am making huh? Well, i don't know where to start, maybe i can start with y i start a blog then.
My life is a mess now, thoughts are running here and there in my brain. Thus, i find it pretty tiring to keep them in my brain so i intend to put some of my memories, thoughts and my life in this site! It is that easy!I am a pretty boring person though, hope i don't bore people...
ironyv at Tuesday, July 01, 2003