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Name: IvyNick: Ironyv
Age: 21
Gender: Female
Birthday: 30 November
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
Country: Singapore
Interests: Makeup, Reading books, Reading manga, watching anime, listening to music, slacking
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Previous Posts
- The end of a chapter
- All about Massage:GSS
- My stupid internet connection:Extreme tiredness
- Projects, Projects and more Projects!!!
- Self Criticism:Self esteem
- 2Cs: Casinos and Chinese
- About myself part 1
- Depressed: Looking back
- Media Planning:Loneliness
- Pictures~~
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Wish List
Digital CameraTo enroll into a makeup class
To go Japan to see my host family
To meet all the friends that I have been longing to meet (look below)
Meeting List
My polytechnic school mates: Jennifer, Changli, Jolene, Kiat, Grace, Sandy..etcMy ex company colleagues: Kelly, Liting, YingChao
My cousins
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Saturday, August 30, 2003
My graduation. Reminds me of the Vitamin C's song. I was wearing jacket, shirt and skirt,and it was a formal event. Reached there to find some of my friends, but I did not talk much to them. My graduation just passed like that, looking at other classes having group photos, glancing at close friends taking pictures for memory purposes.
Yes, I do take some pictures, but it is I who do all the running around, looking for some friends, instead of people coming to me to take pictures. Maybe i was an insignificant person in people's lives. Yes, I envy people who have a huge circle of friends for themselves. They would have so much fun in their lives, having and been supported by all these friends. I myself have a few, very few close friends. But even among them, i wasn't a best friend, more like a step behind best friend. The only friend that she and I can reckon as best friend would be my secondary school friend Stacy.
But now we both have our boyfriends, so we lead a different life. But i would like to remain in contact with them, even though it is I who do the initiating. That's because i care for them as a friend. I am more of a giver in friendships but it is okie, as long as they remember me.
Soon, i will meet new people either in university or when i start work. But then again, I will still have only a few good friends with me. To these friends of mine, Friends Forever. Though you won't see this,(if you do not know i keep this online diary)I hope we will remain friends till when we are old. Lets wish the future will be better for us and good luck in all your endearvours.
These words are my thoughts which i wished to tell my friends but never said it. Ah Heck, I am beginning to sound mushy...heheh...
Good nitey people!
Yes, I do take some pictures, but it is I who do all the running around, looking for some friends, instead of people coming to me to take pictures. Maybe i was an insignificant person in people's lives. Yes, I envy people who have a huge circle of friends for themselves. They would have so much fun in their lives, having and been supported by all these friends. I myself have a few, very few close friends. But even among them, i wasn't a best friend, more like a step behind best friend. The only friend that she and I can reckon as best friend would be my secondary school friend Stacy.
But now we both have our boyfriends, so we lead a different life. But i would like to remain in contact with them, even though it is I who do the initiating. That's because i care for them as a friend. I am more of a giver in friendships but it is okie, as long as they remember me.
Soon, i will meet new people either in university or when i start work. But then again, I will still have only a few good friends with me. To these friends of mine, Friends Forever. Though you won't see this,(if you do not know i keep this online diary)I hope we will remain friends till when we are old. Lets wish the future will be better for us and good luck in all your endearvours.
These words are my thoughts which i wished to tell my friends but never said it. Ah Heck, I am beginning to sound mushy...heheh...
Good nitey people!
ironyv at Saturday, August 30, 2003
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
To all (or none) who read my posts, i am sorry that i have not been posting my diary entries. I am so busy, working for like 12 hrs daily because my aunt can't find enough people to work in the cafe. So damn tired am I that I become slow in doing things and short tempered.
I missed my good old days. Recently, i was actually crying, saying things that I feel unfair to me. I feel my life is bad, that I can't find my identity now. Like what i want to become, what i am going to do now. My mind is in a mess and this gives me a big load to me. But someone told me something that got me thinking. Is my life that bad? After all, I am so better off than people living in poorer countries. What got me thinking is how many people die in those countries. No, not stress or mental breakdown, but they died of hunger, illness, disasters. But we, In comfy Singapore, some people died of stress, depression, crime, drugs and even cancer cause by smoking. Two different countries, yet people still die. Ain't living in a good prosperous country good enough to live? Why do people thought of dying? That is a mystery.
My life, as compared to other people in poorer country, is insignificant. But, maybe i am just having a different life than them. Maybe though poor, they are able to appreciate life better than us. They are able to cherish mother nature better than us. I really don't know. Maybe being in a developed country make us lose touch with nature. Maybe.
So tired, got to sleep
zzZZZZZzzz
I missed my good old days. Recently, i was actually crying, saying things that I feel unfair to me. I feel my life is bad, that I can't find my identity now. Like what i want to become, what i am going to do now. My mind is in a mess and this gives me a big load to me. But someone told me something that got me thinking. Is my life that bad? After all, I am so better off than people living in poorer countries. What got me thinking is how many people die in those countries. No, not stress or mental breakdown, but they died of hunger, illness, disasters. But we, In comfy Singapore, some people died of stress, depression, crime, drugs and even cancer cause by smoking. Two different countries, yet people still die. Ain't living in a good prosperous country good enough to live? Why do people thought of dying? That is a mystery.
My life, as compared to other people in poorer country, is insignificant. But, maybe i am just having a different life than them. Maybe though poor, they are able to appreciate life better than us. They are able to cherish mother nature better than us. I really don't know. Maybe being in a developed country make us lose touch with nature. Maybe.
So tired, got to sleep
zzZZZZZzzz
ironyv at Wednesday, August 13, 2003
Sunday, August 03, 2003
Yes, darkness is my mood now. my life has been very dark and sad now. I lost my bag! And the worst thing is, my work place's money is inside too! And someone took my bag with it! My life could not get better. My mum just give all her fury onto me. I don't know what to say, but I am very tired, emotionally drained and i have to go to work tomorrow and face my auntie! URH......
Well, at least I have my boyfriend who is there for me, and my sisters who are the only people in my family who did not scold me. Thanks to the comic book, i remain virtually alive until now. Going to sleep soon and then I will have to go to work tomorrow.
I was very tired recently. Waking up at 5 am is no mean feat. If you can see my face, i have a face that have big droppy eye bags with dark eye circles. So tired was I that I could not think straight at times and sleep in bus. Good thing i am going to work in afternoon shift. At least i would not need to get up at 5 am!
Drained is the word for me. Yup. I am going to graduate soon and i feel like my life is ending. A new chapter of my life is entering as I turn 20 this year. I just saw the prize winners for my course. How i envy them. How i wish 3 years back i am more clever and study harder. Regret is people's way of trying to imagine what would happen if they did this or did not do this. Life has regrets, it is how people live their life. For me, I would live my life with regrets. I would look at them, and think about them all over again. That is me. Some of my friends ain't like that. They kick off their past and bad stuff they did and look forward. I would never be able to do that.
Oh well, to me, life is like Himalayas. There are ridges everywhere in my life and i am the climber. Climbing is tough, but along the way, i'll meet people who are climbing them too. And i will meet maybe a Giant Snowman who will assist me. =P
Ah, for now, I just have to drag my feet and move on!
~_~
Well, at least I have my boyfriend who is there for me, and my sisters who are the only people in my family who did not scold me. Thanks to the comic book, i remain virtually alive until now. Going to sleep soon and then I will have to go to work tomorrow.
I was very tired recently. Waking up at 5 am is no mean feat. If you can see my face, i have a face that have big droppy eye bags with dark eye circles. So tired was I that I could not think straight at times and sleep in bus. Good thing i am going to work in afternoon shift. At least i would not need to get up at 5 am!
Drained is the word for me. Yup. I am going to graduate soon and i feel like my life is ending. A new chapter of my life is entering as I turn 20 this year. I just saw the prize winners for my course. How i envy them. How i wish 3 years back i am more clever and study harder. Regret is people's way of trying to imagine what would happen if they did this or did not do this. Life has regrets, it is how people live their life. For me, I would live my life with regrets. I would look at them, and think about them all over again. That is me. Some of my friends ain't like that. They kick off their past and bad stuff they did and look forward. I would never be able to do that.
Oh well, to me, life is like Himalayas. There are ridges everywhere in my life and i am the climber. Climbing is tough, but along the way, i'll meet people who are climbing them too. And i will meet maybe a Giant Snowman who will assist me. =P
Ah, for now, I just have to drag my feet and move on!
~_~
ironyv at Sunday, August 03, 2003