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Name: IvyNick: Ironyv
Age: 21
Gender: Female
Birthday: 30 November
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
Country: Singapore
Interests: Makeup, Reading books, Reading manga, watching anime, listening to music, slacking
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Previous Posts
- The end of a chapter
- All about Massage:GSS
- My stupid internet connection:Extreme tiredness
- Projects, Projects and more Projects!!!
- Self Criticism:Self esteem
- 2Cs: Casinos and Chinese
- About myself part 1
- Depressed: Looking back
- Media Planning:Loneliness
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Wish List
Digital CameraTo enroll into a makeup class
To go Japan to see my host family
To meet all the friends that I have been longing to meet (look below)
Meeting List
My polytechnic school mates: Jennifer, Changli, Jolene, Kiat, Grace, Sandy..etcMy ex company colleagues: Kelly, Liting, YingChao
My cousins
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Saturday, September 27, 2003
sorry diary....haven't been talking to you for like 2 weeks? yup, the reason why i am so busy is because i am very tired and when i reach home, bath, eaten and called my boyfriend, i would not have time to write my journal...darn...
Well, i am still the same old me, and i am going to quit my cafe job (finally!) at the end of october. There is still a month to go though and i am looking forward to it. Anyway, i am now currently looking for things to keep myself busy after this job. I'll be retaking my sat test, taking up kickboxing again to lose weight, take my final theory test, going to gym to train up, have my driving practical lessons, get a temp job so that i have money to buy gifts for christmas. Yup, this is basically what i can think of right now.
Oh yah! I have not been meeting up with my friends. Thus, another one would be to meet up with my old pals.
How time flies! It is going to be the end of 2003 and we will be welcoming the start of 2004. Another year will pass and each year, memories will be stored in a file and locked up in your brain store. The three years in polytechnic have given me good and bad memories and i'll try not to forget them.( There is always the occasional fire in my brain that destroys all the files)
Frankily speaking, i am a person who dwell on the past. I would look back in the past and wonder why the hell did i do that. People usually say we must look towards the future, since the past cannot be undone. But i think, looking back at the past is firstly, a good way to learn from mistakes, secondly, knowing you have did something good makes you feel happy.
If i were to lose all my memories, that would be the saddest thing that could happen to me. Yup, i did have very bad memories in my life, but then again, all the good things and the people i knew will be strangers again. They will be sad as i have forgotten them. But such things is so unpredictable. But it can be a blessing in disguise as well. Life will start all over again for me. I will remake these friends again, and maybe i will have a new personality, which is better than what i am now, and i might have good memories.
Okay, i am crapping...heee....good night.
Well, i am still the same old me, and i am going to quit my cafe job (finally!) at the end of october. There is still a month to go though and i am looking forward to it. Anyway, i am now currently looking for things to keep myself busy after this job. I'll be retaking my sat test, taking up kickboxing again to lose weight, take my final theory test, going to gym to train up, have my driving practical lessons, get a temp job so that i have money to buy gifts for christmas. Yup, this is basically what i can think of right now.
Oh yah! I have not been meeting up with my friends. Thus, another one would be to meet up with my old pals.
How time flies! It is going to be the end of 2003 and we will be welcoming the start of 2004. Another year will pass and each year, memories will be stored in a file and locked up in your brain store. The three years in polytechnic have given me good and bad memories and i'll try not to forget them.( There is always the occasional fire in my brain that destroys all the files)
Frankily speaking, i am a person who dwell on the past. I would look back in the past and wonder why the hell did i do that. People usually say we must look towards the future, since the past cannot be undone. But i think, looking back at the past is firstly, a good way to learn from mistakes, secondly, knowing you have did something good makes you feel happy.
If i were to lose all my memories, that would be the saddest thing that could happen to me. Yup, i did have very bad memories in my life, but then again, all the good things and the people i knew will be strangers again. They will be sad as i have forgotten them. But such things is so unpredictable. But it can be a blessing in disguise as well. Life will start all over again for me. I will remake these friends again, and maybe i will have a new personality, which is better than what i am now, and i might have good memories.
Okay, i am crapping...heee....good night.
ironyv at Saturday, September 27, 2003
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Quitting. why do i say that? Well, thats because i am intending to quit my job, get a new life by first, seriously studying for my SAT test, exercising till i lose my tummy, get a driving license, and get a part time job that allows me more time to do my stuff. SIGH....I NEED TIME!!!!
The BIG major problem I am having is that my auntie seems to put extremely HIGH hopes on me, and when i told her i am intending to quit, she was like persuading me to continue on. The very next day, she conveniently told me that she is raising my part time pay, and seems to have forgotten about what i have said. Then she seems friendlier towards me, and tells me she is going to hand some purchasing stuff for me to do. I just couldn't feel more uncomfortable. i
The truth is, the reason why i am so confused is because I do not know my main aim or goal in life. Like if I were to know, i will be moving towards that goal. The fact is i do not have one. I think making money is not a main goal, but something more specific like HOW i am going to make money... Seriously, I do enjoy the cafe job sometimes, but other times, I feel stressed out, over worked, tired. And sometimes I can't find the smiling face I once wore when I just started working. Everything to me now has lose its appeal to me. I am no longer curious on how lattes or capuccino is made. I knew the techniques. I am not interested in the cafe anymore. It is tiring.
And what makes the whole job worse? An aunt who is like the mummy of the job. Why do i say that? She is my third sister of my mother, whom I do not get along as our characters are alike. Like my mum, she nags, bosses, argues and thinks she is right, give sacastic remarks, gives unclear instructions and then scold you for doing it all wrong and many stuff. IT is torturing to have to face her everyday. Though she is nice sometimes, i just can't work with her for long. Since she is the senior of the cafe, she behaves as if she is the head, even though she isn't. This is one reason why I must quit asap.
Sigh....wish someone can give me some advice...I am so tired of trying to figure what i want in my life, what is my main goal. I wish i can find some counselling or consulting from an unknown person who do not know about my life and just be a passive listener and consultant. Wonder i can find one.
Sigh....going to sleep, gd nite.
The BIG major problem I am having is that my auntie seems to put extremely HIGH hopes on me, and when i told her i am intending to quit, she was like persuading me to continue on. The very next day, she conveniently told me that she is raising my part time pay, and seems to have forgotten about what i have said. Then she seems friendlier towards me, and tells me she is going to hand some purchasing stuff for me to do. I just couldn't feel more uncomfortable. i
The truth is, the reason why i am so confused is because I do not know my main aim or goal in life. Like if I were to know, i will be moving towards that goal. The fact is i do not have one. I think making money is not a main goal, but something more specific like HOW i am going to make money... Seriously, I do enjoy the cafe job sometimes, but other times, I feel stressed out, over worked, tired. And sometimes I can't find the smiling face I once wore when I just started working. Everything to me now has lose its appeal to me. I am no longer curious on how lattes or capuccino is made. I knew the techniques. I am not interested in the cafe anymore. It is tiring.
And what makes the whole job worse? An aunt who is like the mummy of the job. Why do i say that? She is my third sister of my mother, whom I do not get along as our characters are alike. Like my mum, she nags, bosses, argues and thinks she is right, give sacastic remarks, gives unclear instructions and then scold you for doing it all wrong and many stuff. IT is torturing to have to face her everyday. Though she is nice sometimes, i just can't work with her for long. Since she is the senior of the cafe, she behaves as if she is the head, even though she isn't. This is one reason why I must quit asap.
Sigh....wish someone can give me some advice...I am so tired of trying to figure what i want in my life, what is my main goal. I wish i can find some counselling or consulting from an unknown person who do not know about my life and just be a passive listener and consultant. Wonder i can find one.
Sigh....going to sleep, gd nite.
ironyv at Thursday, September 11, 2003